Post by vynfyre on Sept 21, 2007 16:41:59 GMT -5
My life in no way is a movie, in fact, its too good for a movie, since most movies are filled with good looking actors/actresses who make guys and girls alike feel bad about themselves. I am unlike a movie, I will not read from a script to define my words and I will not learn choreography to perfect my movements. I want to stand up when the script says sit down, I want to Speak the truth when the script tells me to lie, I want to be a revolution. Here is my Life, why I live and what I do in order to stay alive instead of being some character written up by someone else. I'll give you me, uncut:
I am just gonna dive right into the deep end...
I love writing poetry and reading and writing things besides poetry because it is an outlet for a bunch of crap in my life. What keeps me writing poetry is knowing that people enjoy reading my work, it means alot when someone comments. When people are enjoying something because of something i did, it makes me happy myself.
I hate when people say they hate reading, especially when they are good at it,there are some people that wish they could read well, but cant.
I hate myself for being who I am. I pick on other people all the time, when i shouldnt and whats worse is that i know i shouldnt but i do anyway. i hate myself for that.
I hate "Religious People".
I love God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit, but i call myself spiritually revolutionary, not religious. Being religious is to inept to rules that God himself did not create, but the leaders of society. You are supposed to live for Jesus, not stay chained in the shackles of the status quo and strangling rules. I am staying abstinent because everyone should, but doesnt, i am trying to be an example that it is possible. I laugh at dirty jokes, as long as they arent abusive or demeaning to someone. I will watch movies with a ton of swaring and stuff and not be offended, i just wont take part in it. I am not going to tell you that you are a bad person, no matter what sin you have committed. Saying i am better then you, makes me worse then you, because i am not. I think I have ADD, ive taken enough self tests and told that by doctors, but i have never had a clinical test done. I really dont care, since ADD makes things more interesting, its probably why i think of stuff like this and what makes me so imaginative. I love music of all kinds, i am not gonna limit my self to to just one kind, I will listen to anything from beethoven to alternative to rap to jazz, if i see talent and inspiration in it, i will like it. No matter who you are, you are important. Everyone can change for the better, everyone deserves a second chance.
I admit that i have done many things i am not proud of, and i know that i will screw up again and do them again. Most of my friends are screwing up their lives too, and i am trying to help them. Most guys only care about hot girls and being rich and famous. But it can change. Most girls feel insecure because of the way guys think. it is okay to be attracted to someone by looks, but you cant let that be the only attraction, or the first reason for the attraction. I am looking for a girl, who is more beautiful inside than out. But i also am looking for a girl who needs my help, i want to play a role in her life that is more then just some guy who she involved with for awhile. But right now, I dont want a girlfriend. I dont need one. I have my friends that are girls and i have friends that are guys. All my friends are important to me and i will defend them to the end if they need my help. I want you, I want you to be a friend to everyone, I want to be a friend to everyone. I want to be a hero, to everyone, not like in the movies, i dont want to save the world with some grand plan, i want to save the world one person at a time. Spreading like wind the word of God and the inspiration for changing, feeling the fire i feel in my soul and the drinking the living water that Jesus lets us drink. I am my own director, I am my own person, I am my own movie, i am unlike a hollywood movie.
more to come. stay tuned.
I am just gonna dive right into the deep end...
I love writing poetry and reading and writing things besides poetry because it is an outlet for a bunch of crap in my life. What keeps me writing poetry is knowing that people enjoy reading my work, it means alot when someone comments. When people are enjoying something because of something i did, it makes me happy myself.
I hate when people say they hate reading, especially when they are good at it,there are some people that wish they could read well, but cant.
I hate myself for being who I am. I pick on other people all the time, when i shouldnt and whats worse is that i know i shouldnt but i do anyway. i hate myself for that.
I hate "Religious People".
I love God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit, but i call myself spiritually revolutionary, not religious. Being religious is to inept to rules that God himself did not create, but the leaders of society. You are supposed to live for Jesus, not stay chained in the shackles of the status quo and strangling rules. I am staying abstinent because everyone should, but doesnt, i am trying to be an example that it is possible. I laugh at dirty jokes, as long as they arent abusive or demeaning to someone. I will watch movies with a ton of swaring and stuff and not be offended, i just wont take part in it. I am not going to tell you that you are a bad person, no matter what sin you have committed. Saying i am better then you, makes me worse then you, because i am not. I think I have ADD, ive taken enough self tests and told that by doctors, but i have never had a clinical test done. I really dont care, since ADD makes things more interesting, its probably why i think of stuff like this and what makes me so imaginative. I love music of all kinds, i am not gonna limit my self to to just one kind, I will listen to anything from beethoven to alternative to rap to jazz, if i see talent and inspiration in it, i will like it. No matter who you are, you are important. Everyone can change for the better, everyone deserves a second chance.
I admit that i have done many things i am not proud of, and i know that i will screw up again and do them again. Most of my friends are screwing up their lives too, and i am trying to help them. Most guys only care about hot girls and being rich and famous. But it can change. Most girls feel insecure because of the way guys think. it is okay to be attracted to someone by looks, but you cant let that be the only attraction, or the first reason for the attraction. I am looking for a girl, who is more beautiful inside than out. But i also am looking for a girl who needs my help, i want to play a role in her life that is more then just some guy who she involved with for awhile. But right now, I dont want a girlfriend. I dont need one. I have my friends that are girls and i have friends that are guys. All my friends are important to me and i will defend them to the end if they need my help. I want you, I want you to be a friend to everyone, I want to be a friend to everyone. I want to be a hero, to everyone, not like in the movies, i dont want to save the world with some grand plan, i want to save the world one person at a time. Spreading like wind the word of God and the inspiration for changing, feeling the fire i feel in my soul and the drinking the living water that Jesus lets us drink. I am my own director, I am my own person, I am my own movie, i am unlike a hollywood movie.
more to come. stay tuned.